My life as of now...

Ok, so I made this blog to be about what God is doing in my life in Memphis, but that isn't fair, it should be about my life where ever I am. Like I went to Hawaii, Florida, etc. My life is probably the weirdest and most complicated thing ever. I still don't understand what God is trying to do with and in me but I guess that's good. Only He can see the bigger picture and all I can do is sit back and trust in Him. Easier said then done. So why have I not blogged in forever??? First excuse: Time. Second: I have no idea how to put into words what God is saying to me, I'm just trying to focus on seeking Him and finding His will. Third: Don't have a computer. I guess the first and third excuses don't hold water but the second is true. There is just so much God is showing me right now that it's confusing. With the Ingathering coming up I'm trying to search myself and my things, trying to figure out what is keeping me back from going further with God. Is it clothes? Stuff? Mind set? It is just so hard. I don't want to miss God anywhere, especially at the Ingathering. I know He's going to be there with us and I want to be ready for Him. I want to meet Him with total abandonment. I am His. He has done more for me than I could ever imagine.
So that's what I have for now. I think the best way to put into words what God is doing is that He is setting me free to be who I really am in Him.

Carrot cake/muffins

Okay. My sister officially has a camera so the next time she makes those carrot cake/muffins she is going to take pictures of them and blog about them. Hopefully that is soon but with her busy schedule I don't know. Probably sometime next week. Anyway, I can't wait until she puts the recipe up. They are soooo good, easy, and you have to try them!!!

Job

I never seem to find time to blog. It takes too long and I can't think of anything to write. Dassi on the other hand always has these amazing three page long blogs every week or more and I don't know how in the world she finds time. She is like three times as busy as I am! So I decided to make myself sit down tonight even though it is 10pm and try to think up something to write. It wasn't too hard once I put my brain to it. I'm gonna try harder to find things in my life to write about. I think it helps me.

Last month I read through the book of Job. It wasn't the first time but I definitely got more out of it this time. Job was amazing! He went through soooo much and yet he never lost his faith in God or became bitter towards Him. And here I am, whining because I'm struggling a little. I don't have as much going on as Job did and yet my attitude is worse. I had a really good talk with Stephen last night and He was talking about everything, bad and good, that comes to us in our lives is from the hand of God, to help us grow and make us into a better person. Wow. That's hard to chew on, but it's true. If I could take just a little of what Job had with God for myself than I would be in a whole lot better situation than I am.
Another thing that was wow was how God told Job that if he didn't forgive his friends, God wouldn't. Ouch! Imagine God saying that to you! That's a lot of pressure!
I had a lot more planned to write about this but that's all I can think of for now. :(

Reentry into life!...

This morning was a bit of a learning experience for me. It was the first day of reentering into a life of having parents. You see, they have been gone for almost two weeks and I've totally become independent and my own woman. So you can only imagine what sort of fire works happened! :( The main thing that happened was that I failed to communicate what I was planning to do this morning so school was thrown off. So because of that, everybody got irritated and frustrated and fried...mainly me. I didn't know what to do with myself so I went into the kitchen and made some more of that homemade salsa. It wasn't until I was done that I was cooled off and everything seemed to be normal again. It is funny because I realized that that is what I do when I'm uptight or stressed...I cook. Isn't that funny? That is totally not me, it's my sister. It's weird because once I make one thing, I usually can't stop there, so I took a carrot cake recipe my sister showed me last night and made them into muffins. Everybody loves them! They're already almost gone and it hasn't even been 12hrs! (i only used 1/4 the sugar too!) I would love to put the recipe up here for all of you to try but I'll have to check with my sister to see if she wants to put the recipe on her blog since it is her recipe. :( If she wants to use it I will put a link on my blog for you. So today was a very good day actually, despite how terrible I may have made it sound. My dad went shopping with me this afternoon so we could spend some time together so I guess that helped pull me back into the role of daughter-hood. :) 

Living in a higher realm.

I was on my way to bed last night when my sister pulled me aside and said she wanted to talk to me. Basically she just wanted to check on me and see how I'm doing with life. We ended up having a very good talk. We both pored out what we have been thinking and feeling lately and it just lifted something off me. We both felt 100% better afterwards. Something she brought up was how she felt like she has been living in the natural realm always worrying about money and life. She said she felt like she had lost her joy in life. She said that whenever she feels like that, she knows that she has left God. Somewhere, in something she did, she missed Him. Right when she said that something clicked, that was exactly what I've been feeling; like somewhere I had missed God. I have been worrying about my life and my so called lack of money and stuff. God says that He doesn't want us to worry about tomorrow for we do not even know if there will be a tomorrow. If we busy ourselves with giving to others and making sure they have what they need, somewhere, someone will take care of you. So why do we need to worry about self? If we are then we are missing God.
I had another moment this morning on my way to the Farmers Market. I usually leave around 5:50am and go to Starbucks, get a drink, then head to work. So this morning I did what I normally do not really thinking anything about it. When I was almost there I had to stop for a red light. I reached down and took a sip of my wonderful drink that I needed to keep me awake today. As I was drinking I saw an older looking man crossing the road in front of me. He glanced at me then looked away. I stopped drinking and looked at him. He looked worn, his clothes were old, he looked homeless. And here I was, having a wonderful time, drinking coffee and singing along with the radio...something was wrong. It totally convicted me. I didn't NEED coffee. In fact I don't really NEED anything. If I love God, draw near to Him, and obey Him, then I am lacking in nothing. I just thought it was a really neat experience. I have everything I need.

Amazingly fresh salsa!

Ok, so my sister came up with this salsa recipe and gave it to me. I made it and, of course, took pictures. :) I emailed the pictures to my sister so she could blog about her recipe. I told her she had to mention the fact that  I made the salsa in the pictures. So she put a little 'side note' at the very bottom of her post... :( I am holding up on my end of the deal by blogging about the salsa and putting a link to her blog here... http://cooksinglive.wordpress.com/ ... I really hope someone who reads this, if anyone does anymore, will make this salsa. It is truly the best thing u will put in your mouth!!! No kidding! Have fun making it! :)

Visiting the 'Hi Ho the DairyO' !!! :)

Last Tuesday my mom and I took the boys from the Gatehouse to Evergreen Farms in Middleton. Autumn really wanted to come but she was sick so I took lots of pictures for her and Gavin took videos of everything.  We had a fun hour and a half ride there with the boys making hilarious comments! When my mom asked the boys where we were going Noah said, "The DairyO!!" It made us all double over with laughter. My mom said something about their nice green house when we got there and Noah looked up and said, "O, the president must live here." We all looked around not knowing what he was talking about but then we got it and reminded him that the president lives in the white house...not the green house. :) Again we were all dying of laughter!!! The boys loved walking around the dairy but their favorite part was the chicken coop. Noah took one look at the rooster and pronounced that he was the "King!" And when he saw a white chicken in her box laying an egg he knew right away that she was the "Queen!" 

Filling the jars with milk...

Where they milk the cows...

The squeeze chute where they put the cow when it gets hurt or needs medicine.

The cows...

Rikki the friendly jersey :)

Yay! This is sooo much fun!!!

Where they cool the milk

The boys had fun!!!

The best part... :)

Free range chickens!

In the bottom left corner the 'Queen' sits on her nest. (look real close)

The 'King' with his crown is the second from the left and the rest are just his loyal subjects. :)

The sooo cute baby cows!!!